by: 19’s Sound Factory feat. Hatsune Miku. Credit to Uploader.
It’s easy to pretend. It’s easy to wear a mask, she doesn’t even realize. It’s easy to turn her eyes away from the truth, away from the problems that keep piling up. It’s easy to not encounter her weakness. It’s easy to escape, hide from everything she doesn’t want to meet. It’s easy to be alone rather than to socialize with other. It’s easy to be stubborn, to resist, than to accept.
It’s so easy yet so hard.
She wants to laugh at her pathetic self. She wants to blame it to her yesterday identity. She wants to crush her past individual, to become an entirely new person. She wants to erase that impostor from history.
From her life.
She wants to forget what she remembers.
She doesn’t need the thing called memories, the thing called emotions.
What she needs is something she can control without difficulty. What she doesn’t need is her mind in turmoil.
What is the true happiness, she wonders?
Why everyone seems so caught up with it? She doesn’t need something that flimsy; and ambiguous. What she needs is just a peaceful state of mind.
When she couldn’t be hurt, and couldn’t feel any pain.
It’s fine even if most people would call that condition as being numb.
False happiness is what she seeks.
And what’s wrong with that?
It’s easy to grasp the concept. It’s easy to get.
She wants to sleep forever.
Like a sleeping beauty, eternal in tranquility. She doesn’t need the prince to found her. She doesn’t need him to wake her up. Let her be. Leave her alone.